I am still on the iPad, because for some reason my home computer will not let me post or edit. The iPad messed up when I went to check on Katie, and I couldn't get it to scroll down so I could finish my post. So to finish... Katie, Conner and I stayed with Scott's mom yesterday while his dad went to the doctor and ran some errands. I was happy I could help.
I checked Katie again and decided to test her blood sugar - and darn, I should have checked her sooner! When she came in at 3, I kept trying to wake her up enough to ask her if she needed juice. Katie KNOWS when she is just hot or when she is having a low blood sugar - which is amazing for a 4 year old. Katie was too asleep/sleepy to answer me... I should have just checked her, but I just wasn't sure. Now at 5 am her blood sugar was 38. Way too low. Frustrated with myself! Sorry for her! Now we will have to go to the full pill and see what happens.
In addition to everything, "Pandora's box" has recently been reopened........ Scott reminded me a couple of days ago about a time when we were dating. We were playing a game of Monopoly with some friends. One of my friends was loosing, she was out of money, and I felt bad for her, I didn't want her to loose, so I gave her some of my money. I am not a competitive person. I don't like winners and loosers - I want everyone to win. Scott says I always try to make things fair, even - I want everyone to win, I want things to work out, I want everyone to be okay, I try to make everything better, I try to fix things... but I can't... I can't make everything better, and I can't fix everything. There are some things that just can't be fixed. And that is hard on multiple levels. Now with "Pandora's box" being reopened, and all this evil swirling all around us again, I was feeling - well, lots of things - but none of them very positive... However in the midst of this, two young sister missionaries show up at our door, and this is the message they shared with us: "Now ye see this is the true faith of God; yea, ye see that God will support, and keep, and preserve us, so long as we are faithful unto him, and unto our faith, and our religion; and never will the Lord suffer that we shall be destroyed except we should fall into transgression and deny our faith." (Alma 44:4)
I had been feeling the power of the destroyer and feeling so overwhelmed. Without their even knowing it, these two young sister missionaries, who thought the were here for a different reason, actually delivered an inspired message directly to me from a loving Heavenly Father... No person or power can destroy me, unless I fall into transgression. So, the evil may continue to swirl - and I am sure it will - but I know that God will support, keep, and preserve us.
You are a strong woman! The truth about "we will not be given more than we can handle" speaks volumes for who you are Anndrea! Love and prayers to you and your wonderful family.
ReplyDeleteWhat a blessing that the missionaries showed up at your door right when you needed them! You are so much stronger than you know. I always say, you can have a short pity party for yourself. Then stand up, take a deep breath and face the evil head on! Thats all you can do. Sometimes things just get to hard to deal with and you need a minute to cry. Thats ok. But afterwards, face it head on. You will win! Whether you like winning or losing! :)
ReplyDeleteI pray for you all daily Andrea. Just know I am here if you need me. To cry, to scream or to tell me all the good things that are going on. I am here. We can pretend were back in HS!
Love you! Kelly (you don't need to post this)