Day 164

      Okay, there is just no "sneaking" these pills.  We are having to do it the hard way - and with Katie, it is hard!  We have been at this for a long time now, and we have tried everything we can think of, and we have tried everything that has been suggested to us to get Katie to take medication - nothing has worked well.  So, we have finally resolved ourselves to just doing it and getting it done.  (It is the same way with accessing her port - there is no "distracting" her). 
     We worry about the adverse effects this may have on Katie's attitude towards us - as we are having to hold her down and "force" medication down her throat multiple times a day (not to mention the shots).  Trying to "sneak" the medication in food or drink was no better, because it was becoming an issue of trust with us.  This is hard on her - and us.  There just is no easy or perfect way to do it.  So...we are just doing it.  Katie is in good spirits today.  She has tolerated the treatments extremely well so far.  For that we are glad and grateful. 
     Joseph F. Smith taught: "Many a man has gone to the stake in obedience, as he believed, to the commandments of God.  Not one of the ancient disciples who were chosen of Jesus Christ, escaped martyrdom, except Judas and John.  Judas betrayed the Lord, and then sacrificed his own life; and John received the promise of the Lord that he should live until He came again to the earth.  All the others were put to death, some crucified, some dragged in the streets of Rome, some thrown from pinnacles, and some stoned to death.  What for?  For obeying the law of God and bearing testimony to that which they knew to be true.  So may it be today.  But let the spirit of this gospel be so embedded in my soul that though I go through poverty, through tribulation, through persecution, or to death, let me and my house serve God and keep his laws."  (Gospel Doctrine, 251).  As for me and my house we will serve the Lord (Joshua 24:15).