Day 174

     Katie's blood count had dropped way below normal, so she did get a blood transfusion yesterday.  She looks a lot better!  Although, I don't know that she is feeling much better - she was still having a hard time last night.  All her other levels have continued to go down and the doctor told me to expect them to continue going down.  She may need a platelet transfusion.  It was a long day yesterday.  I will be taking Katie back to the clinic on Thursday.  I am not looking forward to that, but I am glad Katie can get the help she needs to live and feel better.
     I thought this was a good reminder -- "Be Happy Where You Are:  Sadly, many of us continually postpone our happiness - indefinitely.  It's not that we consciously set out to do so, but that we keep convincing ourselves, "Someday I'll be happy."  We tell ourselves we'll be happy when our bills are paid, when we get out of school, get our first job, a promotion.  We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another.  Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough - we'll be more content when they are.  After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with.  We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage.  We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.  And on and on and on!
     "Meanwhile, life keeps moving forward.  The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now.  If not now, when?  Your life will always be filled with challenges.  It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.  One of my favorite quotes comes from Alfred D' Souza.  He said, 'For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life.  But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.  Then life would begin.  At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.'  This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness.  Happiness is the way." (Don't Sweat the Small Stuff, Richard Carlson, PH.D., 169)